DreamCatcher

Worship is my heart. I love to listen to it, I love to lead it, but above all, I LOVE to worship God. It's really the sole reason for what I was born for. This past year has been the hardest with me leading worship. For the school year of 2007/2008, I probably lead about a handful of times. That's HARD when for the two years before that I was leading worship twice a month. So I went to Europe for the summer, for two months and of course, no leading worship there. Well actually, I lead worship in London at my friend's parents' church and it actually went AMAZING. Since being back, it's been the hardest struggle ever in my leading worship. I lead 2 worship sets with Karen Sprenger and it was really hard. So that's six months, two sets, both were horrible. Finally last Tuesday, we had an amazing worship night where I was pushed up on to the stage and told to sing in tongues until we broke through. It was incredible. My voice hit notes and held them. It was amazing. Then, Thursday night I had the dream that I will tell you later about. The dream about the shoes. Then Sunday morning I led at Simpson with Steve Holbrook and it was AMAZING. Hit notes and held them there. Felt freedom. AMAZING. Then Tuesday night at the staff meeting, I brought coffee in and Banning pulled me aside and told me what an awesome job I did. He said that there were moments where he felt like we could have went on forever.  SO ENCOURAGING.

So my dreams.  Thursday night, I had a dream that I was late for a Friday night worship set that I was supposed to be leading with Karen. In the dream, it felt like this had happened before. Like this was a reoccurring thing. I couldn't not be late for practice. Then I went out to my living room to put some shoes on and Kia was sitting right next to my shoe pile. I went to grab for an old pair and Kia looked at them and said "I think you've outgrown those."  I looked in the mirror and I had. Then I looked again and found a new leather brown strappy pair that I forgot I had. I put those on and left.

Next dream. Last night. I was on the keyboard and it was a Sunday night set and I was leading with Ryan Braun. Well, I was leading the whole set and he was my guitar player. Then I went to the back for some reason and when I came back onto the stage, Ryan was gone, and Brian was up there in his spot. I went back to my keyboard and I couldn't see the congregation. There were something like monitors piled up in front of me. I could only see parts of the crowd. Then Brian started to play something and he encouraged me to play with him. I asked him what key he was in and started to play something really simple. Then Brian, being REALLY encouraging, asked me to play something more, even though that was good. I said yeah, but he'd have to hold on because I was really scared. That was when I realized my eyes were squeezed shut and I couldn't open them. Finally after failed attempts, I finally pried them open. Once they were open, the monitors had been moved and I could see clearly and fully the congregation.