REST

In the glory of your presence

I find rest for my soul.

In the depths of your love

I find peace makes me whole.

I love I love I love your presence.

I love I love I love your presence.

I love I love I love you Jesus

I love I love I love your presence

This is the song over my life right now. He's teaching me how to rest. Teaching me how to be whole. Those two EXACT things are what I am going after right now. Out of my rest, I am whole. Out of my intimacy with Jesus, I am made whole. This week has been really key for me. I was hitting a wall in Redding. And I knew breakthrough was and has been coming for me for awhile, but I couldn't pull myself out of the business of life and the craziness of my schedule to look and see. I can get so caught up in working hard, being busy, that I forget to stop and listen. Coming out here has been stretching for me, to do nothing. Knowing that I have so many things to do back at home, and how I am losing money by not being at work. Then yesterday, it was like this big "HUSH KID. RELAX. I GOT IT UNDER CONTROL." slapped me in the face and heart. When will I learn that none of my striving will change what God has in store for me?

A couple of months ago, I was thinking about my future and what I feel like God has for me, and suddenly got discouraged. I started to think about my mom, and certain circumstances in my life that would hold me back from what I really want and would love to do with my life. Thats when I felt the Lord SOOO strongly and loudly say "When are you going to stop letting the circumstances of your life and past dictate the success of your future." Wowee. I mean, can you say rebuke? The most loving rebuke I've ever experienced. He loves me so much, and he is so powerful, why would He allow simple miniscule things get in the way of my future? He loves me way too much for that. He planted desires in my heart for a purpose and for a reason. I love what Lou Engle says "God would not fasten your heart to a dead end dream." DUH.

The things that I have been going hard after this week is rest, wholeness, beauty. There are a lot of great things in store for me, and I am not allowed to act out of the past. My momma Evy told me that this week. There is no room for the things of the past, situations or circumstances from the past that are allowed into my life now. Now, I want to go back to Redding and continue to walk in rest, wholeness, and beauty.

"Let the seasons of change blow in my life, because there are greater things to come"